Kira's First Day of School

Kira's first day of school was three weeks ago. Clearly, both Trevor and I are finding it very difficult to blog right now. Life is crazy at the moment and here are some key words to give you a gist:

- crying

- whining

- tantrums

- nighttime waking

- sick, boogie

- exhaustion

- double-teaming

- hungry

- feedings

- changing

- dirty

- spilt

- chewed up - Logan gets one too

By the way, I am not complaining here, I'm just explaining the craziness.

And while all this is going on, Kira is going to school! I don't want to say she hates it, but I should say that she is not fully adjusted. She cries when I drop her off and she cries the minute she sees me when I pick her up. The teachers are always telling me that she has a good day, that she participates, and that she is self-reliant. I even received a phone call from her teacher further explaining that she is doing well at school. Despite that, the past couple times we've had a school day, (Kira attends only three times a week), Kira cries while getting dressed and runs away from me when it's time to get into the car. This morning she sobbed: "I really want to stay home" and it was the first time she said "really".

I know a lot of moms can't bear to see their kids go through this and miss their kid as much as the kid misses them. Honestly, I'm not one of these moms. I don't worry that Kira cries a little and I savor her time away from home. I just wish that she would get adjusted already because it's so awkward dealing with her when she's expressing her separation anxiety. Usually when she is truly in distress, I give her hugs. But I don't really want to do that in this situation because it only makes her more attached to me.

Maybe we're turning a corner because I asked her if she liked school today and she said yes. I asked her if she wanted to go again, and she said yes. I have to remind myself that every day is a different day.